Now it seems that Time has replaced Place. If only because Place will not change because Money. And thus I must record in relation to Time as opposed to place. I'm in my living room. I live with J. I did C&K. By myself. After drinking. The drinking made me sad. For a moment it made me happy. I'm bending the conditional resolutions I set for myself, trying to figure out what to do with that. I could recount the night and naturally that inclination instead causes me to deliberate on the purpose and value of recounting. Recounting is easy. There are events. I write the events. As I write the events, I write my feelings on the events. I told myself I would write a novella every month this year. It's an attempt to unlock the writing machine. The machine opened in 2021, it opened again in 2023, and now I'm attempting to configure it, to strategically deploy it, this year. This year. 2025. There is a considerable amount of pressure. Money. But also age. Making a Name. My name has already been made, I took a Name, such that I could play. On one hand I like to play. On the other I wonder if I would be better off to retire at the edge of the world, waiting for the world to end, living and dying in obscurity, irrelevance, limbo. So much is so little — the situation of relativity. The situation of landlords and territories. The situation of governance. The territory must be governed. That is not my job. I do not wish to work it. But if one were to give me the job, and the wage was sufficient, I would gover the territory. Most would I think. But most are not asked to govern the territory. Time will pass. I try to determine if there is anyone I can tell about these things. There probably isn't. Time elapses. There is work to be done. I do another line. I prepare to retire and to take a pill in the morning. I am trying. Things are difficult. This is a start. I know there is a way in which the flow can begin, soon.

In the morning I will go to work. After work I will go to the temple. After the temple I will return back home. I will try to talk to J about things. And then I will resume work. It's important that I work. There is so much work to be done.